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life moves forward. i can't be such a packrat towards the evolution of my own life. things change, people move on, life continues. why am i such a sentimental person? why can't i be one of those people who "doesn't give a fuck" ? i quess anticon is done. future ghost is changing. masa is changing. my house and life and roomates and living situation might be changing. my own personal idea of who i am is changing.
there's a strong hint of change in the air.
let's just make sure it's all for the good.
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[13 Oct 2009|05:54pm] |
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my to-do list (off the top of my head).
talk to sean and sean about rent.
talk to sean and sean about deposit.
come to an agreement on what we can do.
call belissa.
sign a lease.
pay bills.
feed/walk rza.
pay the courthouse (more and more...ugh).
keep writing music.
buy brandon n giselle a wedding gift.
buy new jeans/shoes/shirts.
fix my computer battery.
buy more records.
make more money.
tour.
clean the house.
get nick and nick to get the rest of their stuff out of the house.
fix headlights.
call guitar center/take care of cymbals.
get new glasses.
make more yikes! cds.
take dana on a date.
call friends that i never see anymore.
help anticon. move the office.
call adam hain.
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[29 Sep 2009|02:29am] |
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i feel very rushed. i feel like everyone wants something. hardly anyone is genuine anymore. i am so grateful for the ones closest to me. i've been contemplating what i'm even doing with my life. should i sign this lease? should i pay all this money? should i work at this restaurant? i know i want to keep playing music. i know i want to keep dating dana. i know i want to keep living in los angeles (for now).
adam quit future ghost. sina hasn't paid rent. our landlady's phone has been off for 3 days with "a full voicemailbox" and i don't have a way of getting ahold of her. svensson wants his deposit back. rza ate my glasses. i still don't have a driver's license (and it'll be suspended on the 2nd of october if i don't go back into court). i have unpaid parking tickets. my new van is missing a headlight, has a smashed blinker, and a huge fucking dent in the side from i-have-no-idea-where/who. our house has mice. my bank account is empty. there's pizza in the fridge, and butts in the ashtray.
i want a silkscreen press. i want to quit my job and make tshirts for bands. i feel like it's time to start doing real things. working in a restaurant isn't going to get me anywhere, it will merely keep me afloat for the time-being. speaking of which, david (fat asshole manager from gg) got fired. i miss working there (aside from dealing with david), and i made more money there. masa's cool n stuff, but i feel constantly on-edge.
dana truly is amazing. she makes me smile like no one else ever has.
what other thoughts have been passing though my mind lately....
too many. i will spew more snippets some time later on.
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[24 Sep 2009|11:11am] |
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busy busy busy busy busy busy busy
last night we screen printed the yikes! a lion! cd covers, they look fucking awesome. way better than i had imagined. come get one! bryan may is making a zine/insert for us. sina showed me the concept and it's exciting. this shit's gonna be raddd.
i want to buy a silk screen press. and a button machine, and quit my job, and tour, and sing, and scream, and drink, and smoke, and laugh, and live, and enjoy every aspect of every day.
two days ago was dana's birthday, it was awesome.
david got fired from gingergrass, should i have stayed?
livejournal is all weird now?
living with sean and sean is rad, but it's strange not having the nicks around. we're training rza, and it's kind of working?
i never feel the urge to write in this anymore, but sometimes i feel like i owe it to the online community to update things every so often.
it's 11:11, make a wish!
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[05 Sep 2009|03:54pm] |
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answer that and stay fashionable. |
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i've felt very detached from some things lately. but in the best possible way. life has been pretty great. every few days or so it'll hit me. i love my job (even tho working today and missing f yeah fest sucks), my girlfriend is amazing, i can't even describe how much i love playing in my two bands.
nick and nick officially don't live in this house anymore. sean foye is moving in tomorrow. rza is staying, she's been such a brat lately.
i want to start a punk band. and a grind band. and a synthy electronic mellow band. let's do these things??
i'm going to go shower, then walk to work and then drink beers with my danasaur.
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[03 Aug 2009|01:53am] |
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wake up early.
walk/feed rza.
go to the post office, mail rent check to the landlady.
go to the bank, deposit checks/money for rent.
call belissa to talk about the lease.
hopefully do month-to-month, or 6 month (unlikely).
call mom.
call rob about coming in late to gina's.
work masa noon til 4.
race to orange county (on zero gas).
work at gina's.
figure out this deposit ordeal.
call shaun at anticon, not going in on tuesday, again.
possibly pick dana up at the airport?
smaller "to-do" list tonight. still stressed.
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[01 Aug 2009|06:17pm] |
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call belissa.
call julie at masa.
get a haircut or masa won't let me work.
get a new razor since i actually have to shave now.
go to the bank.
make sure nick and sean give me money if i'm writing a check.
work out how we're going to pay this fucking deposit.
wash my car.
get a (long overdue) oil change.
fix my headlight.
pay for two parking tickets.
figure out the $1300 situation.
stop flaking on my bands.
get rza a flea bath.
stop flaking on friends.
request time off from masa to go to cousin's wedding.
figure out if i can still work at gina's.
why is katie suspended??
am i going to make enough money working at masa?
tips have been really great at gingergrass lately.
can i still afford to go to anticon?
no money to pay for recording or pressing cds/vinyl.
no money for food.
no money for beer.
no money for cigarettes.
no money for new shoes or new jeans, which i need.
no money to pay stephanie for cutting my hair.
why the fuck did life get so stressful all of a sudden?
all of this snuck up on me so quickly. shit.
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[23 Jul 2009|04:26am] |
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my life as of late.
loosely written in pros/cons/concerns/notes:
(i'm super fucking stressed. but writing this out helped).
got a job at masa. i start tomorrow at noon.
dating dana. she's awesome.
trying to get anticon to pay me.
playing alot of music. all the time.
staying in la.
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signing a year lease.
scarpa moving out in september.
sean moving in now, and out soon.
sean not telling me until yesterday.
coming up with money for a deposit.
making sure i have enough money for rent.
finding legitimate roomates.
adopting, taking care of, and paying for rza.
rza has fleas.
owe oc superior court $1300.
license might get suspended.
monthly car payments to dad.
taking time off work for cousin jennifer's wedding.
quitting gingergrass professionally.
making sure masa works out.
need new jeans and shoes.
painting the house for the landlord.
parking ticket.
getting bills switched to my name.
booking shows.
paying for recording.
taking time off work for recording.
figuring out if i can still work gina's.
need new drum kit (yeah right).
lost my phone charger. again.
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[19 Jul 2009|03:43pm] |
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i love my friends. i really, really do. i love having people over and offering a good time. i love playing music for people. i love watching my friends play music. i love dancing and drinking and smoking and hugging and talking and giving high fives.
but, i really do not appreciate blatant disrespect. i mean, writing all over the bathroom walls with shaving cream? writing "so-n-so was here" in sharpie on the kitchen wall?? cooking my frozen food at 4am? these things aren't cool.
the house is thrashed. the landlord is coming to do a walk-thru on tuesday, in order to resign the lease to me. the next 48 hours should be interesting.
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[17 Jul 2009|01:13pm] |
haven't made an entry in a long while. things are great. it's a beautiful day in los angeles. i got to sleep in (i know right?!)! we're having a going-away/moving-out party for nicklas svensson tomorrow night. my band, yikes! a lion!, are playing. it's gonna be rad!
things have been pretty awesome lately. yikes! went on tour, which was amazing. i should post a few photos, but i'm feeling kinda lazy. we hit santa cruz, oakland, sacramento, portland, and olympia. it was great! we toured with our friends' band A Hellen Keller Episode. check the yikes! myspace for photos (myspace.com/yikesalion).
working at gingergrass is getting annoying. constantly feeling like i'm on the verge of getting fired is so annoying. i need a new job. anyone know of rad restaurants in echo park/silverlake/close by that are hiring??
i've been dating a lady. more than dating, she's my girlfriend. i'm smitten.
i'm adopting rza when scarpa moves out in september. she'll be my bitch beast. love that dog.
future ghost is recording some more sunday evening, should be awesome! we're recording with this dude owen who moved here from ireland. he just got a job working at the record plant (holy shit! kind of a big deal) but i think we're just recording in our practice space in downtown. i'm excited.
i'm rambling, but it's the middle of the day and i don't work until later this evening. just enjoying the sunshine and calm before the storm that will be this weekend.
come hang out and party!
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[24 Jun 2009|11:17pm] |
just got home from tour. best time of my life.
pictures and elaborations soon.
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[17 Jun 2009|02:13am] |
band is going on tour --- tomorrow.
holy shit.
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[20 May 2009|02:33am] |
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too lazy to elaborate. but life has extreme ups and downs. i haven't been letting the down effect me, and the ups have been amazing. i love you!
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[28 Apr 2009|01:41pm] |
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i quess i like bandwagons, too.
the first time i thought i got drunk i was real young (7 or 8?). my cousin, kyle, and i drank some of our grandma's 7n7 and ran around the backyard yelling "ahhhm sooo druuunk!" i wonder if he remembers that.
the first time i legitimately got drunk was toward the end of junior year of high school. peter corzine was house sitting for some family friends (husband and wife, both happened to be ministers?) and we were being manly men, drinking and playing poker. i drank malibu and jack daniels. we all got drunk then decided to go in the jacuzzi. i remember brent being naked the majority of the night. since i was drinking malibu, i woke up terribly hung over and didn't drink again for a good long while.
the first time i got stoned was (obviously) at travis' house, sometime toward the middle/end of junior year. he and i had gone to glass garden in huntington beach earlier that day and he bought a hookah. his parents had just left on a trip so we were smoking inside. i hesitated but after everyone left he looked at my and said "dude, you know you're gonna hit this" (which i really wanted to) and took a little puff. immediately afterward we smoked a joint in the backyard and his little brother holden caught us and threatened to tattle if we didn't let him smoke. i remember walking to jack in the box and being too stoned to even order food. all i could focus on was how annoying the clerk was.
my first kiss was a peck from a girl whom i thought i was in love with in second grade at our afterschool program. i can't even remember her name, but at the time i thought she was bangin'
my first real kiss (on the lips!) was with mariah freshmen year of highschool. us and all of our friends would hang out for hours every afternoon at triangle square and after seeing a movie (the first spiderman?!) we were walking away and had to part ways. we went to hug her goodbye and i wasn't even going to try to kiss her, but she surprised me. i remember walking to cory blaine's house with him and travis and them giving me a bunch of guff for being so smiley.
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[24 Apr 2009|12:37am] |
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i've had the flaming lips' "do you realize??" in my head all day. |
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i'm broke. i spend too much money on drum sticks and cigarettes. and beer and food and gas. i needed gas on my way home tonight and decided to call my bank before using my card. i have $0.65 in my account. shit! i have a show tomorrow night, for which i need more drum sticks, and gas to get there (and gas to get to work tomorrow), and money for beer (of course). plus two of my cymbals are cracked and i need to front some money to get new ones, which will cost me a pretty penny ($400+). rent is coming up soon, too. shit.
on the up side - life fucking rules. both my bands are awesome. i love playing music with my best friends (no offense to anyone whom i don't play music with, it's a figure of speech-ish). both of my bands have new songs as of this week. and i'm super pumped on each. yikes! a lion! are making shirts. they're gonna rule. future ghost is playing a huge house show tomorrow (friday) night, and it's gonna rule. so hard.
the am cashier shift at gingergrass was eliminated this week, giving me one less shift. kind of a bummer. but gina's has been killer lately and i've been walking with $150 the last few weeks. for a while i'd been telling myself that i should stop making the trip down there every week, because on occasion it's more of a hassle than anything else, but how can i say no to those kinds of tips?! gina's will continue to put food in my belly, gas in my car, and cigarettes in my lungs for a while longer.
i want to have a party. i know that taking time off work and spending more money on booze is probably a horrible idea at the moment. but fuck it, i wanna git jrunk and hang out with all of my friends, all at once.
if you're free tomorrow evening (and in the los angeles area) you should come see future ghost and get drunk and hang out with us. it's gonna be rad, i promise.
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[21 Apr 2009|02:03am] |
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hyperion tavern with the anticon folk and awesome friends. record store day with amazing performances. coachella with amazing bands and even more amazing memories. lunch with the cousin in palm springs, busy busy night at gina's, karaoke and fun times. the last few days have been a blur. but the best kind of blur. the type of blur where you can't even remember the last time you felt bummed or bored or sad or upset. i like this.
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[03 Apr 2009|01:47pm] |
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merriweather post pavilion - animal collective. |
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life is good. and it seems that life is good for the people around me (aside from the last 4 days kicking nick scarpa's ass). origami vinyl is opening today. neil scheild thanked me in the liner notes on the record store's wall. nico stai was on the carson daly show last night. i'm going to a laker game with my dad on sunday. other people from gingergrass are calling me asking if they can cover my shifts (wtf?!). money hasn't been as tight as it has been the last few months. the new animal collective record is amazing. future ghost is so fucking fun. yikes! a lion! is so fucking fun. yikes! has a show on sunday the 12th of april. the party last week was awesome. i love walking around the neighborhood and seeing people i know. the new themselves record is amazing. fef is home. my friends rule. i got to sleep in today. i want to go on a road trip. i want a sandwich. i need to do laundry. i want to record the rest of the yikes! songs. i want to press the future ghost ep on 7" because that would rule. wilco and sonic youth have new records coming out - holy shit.
i'm rambling. but life is good.
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[03 Apr 2009|03:46am] |
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seriously, tho?
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[02 Apr 2009|02:51am] |
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ali sina youssefzadeh is an amazing human being.
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[25 Mar 2009|05:10pm] |
it's almost march 27th.
how the fuck has it been 5 years?
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